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Audrey

October 2008

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Ode to a Wonderwall

In Corinthians 13: 4-7 Paul writes:
          
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres."

I'm a hopeless romantic, but at the same time, I'm a grounded realist. I know we don't live in a world of perfect loves, of Romeo and Juliets, or Cinderellas and handsome princes, or even Jack and Sallys. We live in a world of harsh realities, of Desdemona and Othellos, Jack and Ennis'. The type of love that Paul describes is a perfect love, only capable of being expressed fully by God towards us. And while some may argue that God does anger with us, I prefer to think he's not mad, he's just "disappointed". Love is imperfect, it envies, it's selfish, it holds grudges. It is mistrustful and at times hopeless, because we are. We are miserable, self-serving, shallow creatures barely capable of pure unifluenced thought and thus so is love. What elevates love, true love at least, from any other debauched human feeling is perserverence. Being in love, really being in love doesn't mean never having to say you're sorry. It means that you will mess up, and you will sincerely seek forgiveness and it will be granted in good faith. Being in love means you can mistrust and freak out and be forgiven and thus gain trust. It's how the game works. It's hard, and it's rare, but I think it's something we all ultimately aspire to, whether we admit it to ourselves or not. 
It means accepting someone for their flaws, and loving them anyway, it means compromise, and sacrafice, but doing it willingly. It's not blind adoration and trust, its trust based on history and experience and thought. Love isn't blind, it means having eagle eyed vision, of seeing someone under a microscope and accepting them and letting them do the same. It's being a well-informed idiot. That's what it takes, that's what it demands, and it's a risk, but then again, isn't everything good in life a risk?

On that note, I would like to announce my undying love and affection for Mike Rowe of Dirty Jobs. I'm sure we'll be quite happy together once we meet.

[Yes, I'm a sap STFU.]

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